So this week's class was about community, social capital and sustainability indicators (...another time, other blog.) I was asked to do an on line survey about me in my community and I got about half way through when I decided to erase it all and stop. I felt I wasn't able to answer the questions accurately or correctly, which is strange because there really are no wrong ways to answer a survey. What I mean is although technically I belong to several communities including the physical neighborhood I live in, I do not feel like a member of a community. I lack social capital.
By circumstance I have become a loner. Oddly enough I am OK with that. After living abroad in countries that don't speak English much for more than 7 years I am finding it a bit difficult to assimilate back into Canadian living. I turn up my music when I can overhear (and understand) teenagers talking about their "overwhelming" problems (and a lot of women my age talking like teenagers...like...ya know...like...OMG!) I don't care to join a gym or club. I rarely go out with my classmates. I loathe being in a group of strangers. I don't even know my roommate's last name. Sometimes we go a whole week without speaking to or seeing each other. I have been perfectly content to trudge a path from home to school back home again day after day. (Although it would be nice to relax when I get home instead of being so boggled down with homework that even if I had friends in this city I'd never be able to see them anyway.) So maybe I will work on becoming more wealthy in terms of social capital...maybe...
In the meantime I will shut myself in my room with my adorable bug and do homework until my brain bleeds. By the way...the latter is really not a choice.
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